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April 20, 2006
Just For The Day
Dear Trevor,
Hi this is Denise. Just want to drop a line and say hello. I've been thinking a lot about you and wanted to say thank you again for the awesome trip to L.A. that you and your crew sent our family on. It has been almost a year today that our family spent what would be our last vacation together, and a very special one it was.
That trip was one of Tylor's dreams and because of you caring so much, you made that happen for him and all the family.
Today would have been Tylor's 15th birthday.
I am missing him so very much. I miss him every day, but today is even harder. No birthday cake to make, no gifts for him to open, no birthday cards, just a broken heart , lots of tears and the memories of the birthdays before.
I think about the day he was born and how perfect he was. So healthy and beautiful. It breaks my heart to talk about him in past tense. I was thinking about how you said when you have a lot on your mind you paint or draw or write and how it helps you to feel better. Well, as we all know, I can't paint or draw, but writing really helps. I have written a poem for Tylor' birthday and I would love to share it with you:
Just For The Day.
Dear God ,
May I be excused just for the day
from the lessons of life in this huge classroom
where we live and learn?
I am finding the lessons of this earth too hard to learn.
Just for the day, can I stop to rest in a quiet place
and lay down my head.
As you know, I have lost my son,
and the role is too hard for me to play on this day,
the words spoken are false
my face is a mask, and my smiles are fake.
The only truth I see is love, and that I find hard to see today
So please, God
may I have this day
just for me
no worries
no lessons
no pain
just my inner peace that's been missing for some time.
Please God may I be excused.
Just for the day?
Posted by trevor at April 20, 2006 08:55 AM
Comments
Denise, I can't imagine your pain as a mother on this day that marks Tylor's birthday or any ordinary day. I pray God grants you comfort in His loving arms as you face each day without Tylor physically with you. Via Trevor's blog, Tylor touched so many hearts with an unending courage and wisdom far beyond his years. I checked day after day for updates on Tylor and shared his story with many. You can be proud as a mother.
You have my prayers and good thoughts as do all of your family.
Ciao,
Dee
Posted by: dee at April 20, 2006 05:49 PM
Hello Denise,
Watching your child suffer is one of the worst experiences any mother could ever be expected to go through. Losing your child is the absolute worst.
My heart goes out to you as you grieve for your beautiful son on this day and every day. May you find peace in the life you did share, and the love both you and Tylor experienced. This is special and will never be lost. Treasure it in the difficult moments. Remember you gave Tylor the greatest gifts ever - life and love.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care, Marica
( New Zealand)
Posted by: Marica at April 23, 2006 06:08 AM
Hey Trev. I really liked that you updated about Tylor. I miss him so much and their family really stayed strong! I dont know how they do it. I was also wondering about the book. I cant wait. I hope your still going to publish and everything. I think it will help everyone reading it. He was an amazing person. I Hope to talk to you soon. Bye Trev -Alisha (Heather's Friend) :)
Posted by: Alisha at April 23, 2006 12:20 PM