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August 28, 2005
The Mother Of Love
My heart breaks for Tylor’s mother, Denise. She is exhausted and totally drained. She has to wake up every two hours to change the IV bag for his medication. She told me Tylor is now sleeping in her room so she can attend to his medication quickly and efficiently.
A few days ago, Denise said something so sad yet so tragically beautiful:
“In the middle of the darkest part of the night after I have changed Tylor’s medication, I lie awake and think about the meaning of life. Our house is so tiny I can hear the others breathing and tossing restlessly in their sleep. Even the house itself seems restless. I think it’s like this because we’re living from minute to minute.
“Before I go back to sleep at night, after every medication change, I make sure I rest my hand on Tylor’s chest so that I can feel his heart beat. I am petrified that something might happen while I’m asleep and I can’t bear the though of that.”
Denise I don’t think there is any pain in the world worse than what you are suffering right now, yet you continue to keep your family together with your humor, strength, faith and compassion. You are an inspiration.
I send you my prayers and love Denise during this uninvited hell that is tearing your soul apart. (I’m sure I can say the same for all of the readers of this blog.) I know after six years of battling Tylor’s cancer all you pray for is to return to the carefree, happy days before the diagnosis. Days of fun and laughter. Days of easy living. Days that so many of us forget to appreciate and enjoy as we focus on our small surmountable problems. Little problems that consume us and rob us of valuable time. Time that some people I know would give anything to have, so that a loved one could live another day.
Blessings, love and comfort to all of you from the bottom of my heart.
Posted by trevor at August 28, 2005 03:12 PM
Comments
denise has my prayers too - as a mother - i can only imagine what she is going through and she must be so strong
(trevor .. did you get my email re sending stuff ?)
Posted by: ~Kathryn~ at August 29, 2005 02:05 AM